I’m Still Here…

First let me apologize for going AWOL these past few weeks. The past few weeks I have been going through something much too deep and it’s incredibly painful. It’s beyond hard to put into words and I’m not even sure that I want to really rehash all the ups and downs that I have been experiencing.

The little blog and running hiatus of mine has opened my eyes and I’ve decided to blow the whistle on myself! All of a sudden, it’s obvious that I’m not performing as well as I should be. It is time to put the legendary Capricorn self-discipline to work. I need to change my work methods, budget my money more carefully, and diversify my activities. All sorts of solutions are available to me, I have the whole world at my fingertips!

Today we are exactly six months into the year, and I’m not going to lie: I’ve spent the past couple of weeks feeling kind of down about where I am with my running, life and fitness lately. This has not been the year that I would have wished and expected it be. In a lot of ways, it feels like I am drowning on dry land. Not a great feeling I must admit and definitely not a productive and positive way to view life. I need to stop directing all of my negative energy on why I am at this standstill in my life and instead I need to start prioritizing my life, regrouping, and most importantly remembering all the reasons why I love running. The sun on my face, the wind in my hair, discovering new routes, to name a few. Running has taught me so many valuable lessons that I need be applying towards my daily life.

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All of this negative energy does is bring me down, rob me of my energy, and make me feel like it’s not even worth trying anymore. Besides it’s blatantly not true. No, I haven’t done as much training for my upcoming Dumbo Double Dare as I would have liked, but I have exactly two months to get my act in gear and start training. I have enough time to train, right?! After all this is not my first rodeo! I look forward to this fun-filled Labor Day weekend every year and I am not going to allow the road blocks of life to slow me down!

No, I may not be even remotely close where I want to be in my life, which brings me back to the title of this post; I’m still here. I will need to accept and be proud of my  where I am in my life and fight like hell to make a better life for myself. As the expression goes, if you don’t like what you see in the mirror, change it. And that is exactly what I am going to do. Besides, if I keep consistent and diligent with all of endeavors including with my workouts, everything will fall into place and I will begin to not only be the person that I want to be, but also be the runner that I envision myself to be.

While we might be half through the year, I fully intended to make the rest of 2013 count. I am going to wake up every morning with optimism that today is a new day. I am going to take full advantage of the promise that each new day holds. I’m eager to get out and hit the pavement again. Am I going to run a new personal record? Unlikely. Can I run a good, solid 13.1 miles to the best of my race-day ability? Absolutely! Who knows, I might even surprise myself a little with the results, if I put the work in.

QOTD: I’m not too sure who is out there reading this, but I would love to hear from you. Please comment below and share why you love to run and the hurdles that you have faced in your own running routines and how you over came them.

11 thoughts on “I’m Still Here…

  1. My issues with running have always been not doing my absolute best on the course, and being a lil too chubby, which slows me down. BUT there is something about that starting line, and especially that finish line, that keep me going back for more. I love the spectators, and the friends I have made (including two Minnie Mouse girls who let me hang with them before the Disney Marathon started in January, and even ran the first half mile with me). Remember those things, and you will get back in it!

    • I completely agree with you, there is definitely something about starting and finish lines that keep me coming back! The energy and excitement that I feel during a race is always exhilarating! Great suggestion I will start going back to those feelings as I am easing back into training.

  2. Keep your head up– if you’ve recognized your current discontent and made the conscious decision to change your life for the better, you’re already halfway there!! I love running mainly because of the things it teaches me about myself and my body– that I can break barriers and do things that I never thought were possible. My biggest struggle was a knee injury I suffered while training for the MCM (my first marathon) last year. I didn’t train properly and thought I was invincible– my knee told me otherwise when I tried to increase my mileage too quickly. I continued training, hurt myself even more, and ended up being unable to run the race. I struggled with the fact I let myself and my friends down by being irresponsible with my training and not respecting the sport. I was really down in the dumps for a while afterwards because I really, really wanted to run that marathon. I was able to overcome my struggles by taking a step back to analyze the situation, giving my body the rest it deserved (even though I hated taking time off from running), and being patient while I healed. After a few months off, I’m running faster than ever with absolutely no pain. I’m also planning to run my first marathon (again) in 2014, and am determined to train properly this time. I think the most important thing is to recognize a situation as controllable, come up with a plan to manage the situation, and put it into action. Just like you are doing now. Best of luck as you work towards your goals!!

  3. Please remember we all have days where we feel like you do. It’s just in how we handle it. Get back to enjoying the things you love.
    I enjoy running because of the camaraderie, and the accomplished feeling afterwards. The only hurdles I have had are just slight injuries but I don’t let that throw me off track or get me too upset because I know running is not my day job..haha. Best of luck to you!

    • Thanks so much for the kind reassuring words! It’s refreshing to know that I am not the only one out there having days like these. You sound like you have a very positive outlook and I love it! Best of luck to you in your journey!!

  4. I am struggling with being gluten free and running. I just started avoiding gluten and it is helping A LOT! But I struggle with getting enough protein in and drinking water instead of coffee. I had a 6 mile run the other day that I did and it felt good, and it’s motivating me to continue with my training. I am running my first half at the end of September, so I need to start increasing my miles. 6 is the furthest I have gone now so I will be working to gain even more!
    Recognizing there is something wrong and working to fix it is awesome! I liked you on Facebook so I can see more of what’s going on and cheer you on along the way if you need it 🙂

    • Being a gluten free runner actually has many advantages. I have been a GF runner for a little over a year now. Please feel free to reach out to me and I would be happy to provide pointers and tips!! 🙂 Best of luck on your first half marathon! Which race will you be participating in? I can’t wait to here about your race!!

  5. :hug:

    I’m sorry you are going through something so difficult right now. We all go through periods like this, and the thing is you’re winning, because you have identified your problem and have a plan in place to change things. Whatever goals you’re setting, you are going to achieve, simply because you are not accepting the status quo. And I love the fact that you have realized that you are here and “here” is a great place, even if it’s not exactly what you want.

    I love running because of how strong I feel, how healthy it makes me. Right now, I’m recovering from surgery, so I am restricted from physical activity. It is so frustrating and so upsetting to see how I could go from running 5 miles to barely being able to walk down the street, but I am going to get it back. All of it. I remember how good I feel, and how it feels to cross a finish line and celebrate with my family and friends.

    Best of luck! The rest of your 2013 is going to be great!

    • I absolutely have a plan in place it’s getting everything to fit together! I have been in your shoes restricted from physical activity trust me it gets better and before you know it you will be lacing up your running shoes again! Heres to an AMAZING rest of 2013!!!

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