First let me apologize for going AWOL these past few weeks. The past few weeks I have been going through something much too deep and it’s incredibly painful. It’s beyond hard to put into words and I’m not even sure that I want to really rehash all the ups and downs that I have been experiencing.
The little blog and running hiatus of mine has opened my eyes and I’ve decided to blow the whistle on myself! All of a sudden, it’s obvious that I’m not performing as well as I should be. It is time to put the legendary Capricorn self-discipline to work. I need to change my work methods, budget my money more carefully, and diversify my activities. All sorts of solutions are available to me, I have the whole world at my fingertips!
Today we are exactly six months into the year, and I’m not going to lie: I’ve spent the past couple of weeks feeling kind of down about where I am with my running, life and fitness lately. This has not been the year that I would have wished and expected it be. In a lot of ways, it feels like I am drowning on dry land. Not a great feeling I must admit and definitely not a productive and positive way to view life. I need to stop directing all of my negative energy on why I am at this standstill in my life and instead I need to start prioritizing my life, regrouping, and most importantly remembering all the reasons why I love running. The sun on my face, the wind in my hair, discovering new routes, to name a few. Running has taught me so many valuable lessons that I need be applying towards my daily life.
All of this negative energy does is bring me down, rob me of my energy, and make me feel like it’s not even worth trying anymore. Besides it’s blatantly not true. No, I haven’t done as much training for my upcoming Dumbo Double Dare as I would have liked, but I have exactly two months to get my act in gear and start training. I have enough time to train, right?! After all this is not my first rodeo! I look forward to this fun-filled Labor Day weekend every year and I am not going to allow the road blocks of life to slow me down!
No, I may not be even remotely close where I want to be in my life, which brings me back to the title of this post; I’m still here. I will need to accept and be proud of my where I am in my life and fight like hell to make a better life for myself. As the expression goes, if you don’t like what you see in the mirror, change it. And that is exactly what I am going to do. Besides, if I keep consistent and diligent with all of endeavors including with my workouts, everything will fall into place and I will begin to not only be the person that I want to be, but also be the runner that I envision myself to be.
While we might be half through the year, I fully intended to make the rest of 2013 count. I am going to wake up every morning with optimism that today is a new day. I am going to take full advantage of the promise that each new day holds. I’m eager to get out and hit the pavement again. Am I going to run a new personal record? Unlikely. Can I run a good, solid 13.1 miles to the best of my race-day ability? Absolutely! Who knows, I might even surprise myself a little with the results, if I put the work in.
QOTD: I’m not too sure who is out there reading this, but I would love to hear from you. Please comment below and share why you love to run and the hurdles that you have faced in your own running routines and how you over came them.