The past few weeks I have been going through a lot of big changes and transitions in my life, where I am a proud to say that EVERYTHING is starting to finally fall into place! It’s all HAPPENING!!! It’s beyond hard to put into words all of my feelings and emotions in regards to how relived I am to put that last chapter of my life behind me. I’m not even sure that I am ready or have fully processed everything that has transpired these past few years. Hopefully a lot of the extra stresses in my life are behind me, which optimistically speaking should help my Crohn’s. Fear not friends, San Pellegrino will always be my best friend!
Building and creating a new life is not easy and I don’t think that it is meant to be easy. It’s really hard and you need to fight for it, keep searching until you find what you are looking for. I have traveled across the country and back within the past year and I learned very valuable lessons including what is most important to me in my life and where my heart calls home. If I could have clicked the heels to my running shoes sooner, trust me I would have, but like our heroine Dorthy Gale, sometimes you need to journey down the yellow brick road of life.
All roads lead home and eventually you wake one morning warm in your bed, look around and realize that you are home. Arrived safely, not unscathed, but you most importantly you made it. While in life there might always be a little voice in your head saying, “coulda, woulda, shouda,” I am firm believer in everything happens in life for a reason. Sometimes in life you need to travel to the ends of the earth to discover who you really are and what you are made of. I for one know that I have endless amounts of strength, resilience, hope, and determination. I am a fighter!
This little blog and running hiatus of mine, due to life simply taking over, has opened my eyes and I’ve decided to blow the whistle on myself! Life is a juggling act as they say and it’s not always easy. All of a sudden, it’s obvious that I’m not performing as well as I should be. I have been experiencing a lot and I mean a lot of muscle spasms in lower legs and it really hurts! It is time to put the legendary Capricorn self-discipline to work. I need to change my work methods and diversify my activities. All sorts of solutions are available to me, I have the whole world at my fingertips! I am very lucky to be living in a city that has not only beautiful weather throughout the year, but also to live in a community that has beautiful running paths as well.
Today we have about 2 months left in 2014 and I intended to make the entire year count, it is year of JOY after all! I am going to embrace everyday as a new day and an opportunity for happiness and sunshine. In tend to fill my Hope in a Jar, with new adventures, ah moments, and laughter. I am going to start focusing more on my running, being more diligent in regards to improving pace and stamina. I know that this won’t always be an easy task, I will need to keep reminding myself all of the amazing reasons why I love running. The sun on my face, the wind in my hair, discovering new routes, to name a few. Running has taught me so many valuable lessons that I will always be applying those lessons towards my daily life.
While I might not be exactly where I pictured myself to be at 31, I definitely have a clearer picture of where I want to take my life and the women I envision myself to be, which brings me back to the title of this post; It’s Been a Weird Year. As the expression goes, if you don’t like what you see in the mirror, change it. And that is exactly what I am in the process of doing. Besides, if I keep consistent and diligent with all of endeavors including with my running and training plans, everything will fall into place and I will begin to not only be the person that I want to be, but also be the runner that I envision myself to be.
I am going to wake up every morning with optimism that today is a new day and to believe in the power of the day. I am going to take full advantage of the promise that each new day holds. I’m eager to get out and hit the pavement again and reach my goals!
QOTD: I’m not too sure who is out there reading this, but I would love to hear from you. Please comment and share why you love to run and the hurdles that you have faced in your own running routines and how you over came them.